New loves: Dresden Dolls and Flogging Molly.

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Flogging Molly is semi-Irish sounding, with quick beats and fast paced violin riffs (yes, you can riff violins) and Dresden Dolls is electronic-clinky, very pretty. The first is an energy-booster, the second is calm and mocking. I love them both, and was introed to both of them a while back by Anna, but only listened properly to them right now.

...I'm resisting the temptation to call Matt. It would be the easy thing to do - he's still obsessed with me, one call would be all it would take to have him fall all over himself to make me feel like a princess again. And it would work, because you see, he loves me so much and worships me so well, that when he's around me, I feel better about myself. After all, when someone treats you so incredibly well, adores you so unconditionally, wouldn't you believe that there has to be something special about you for other people to care about you like that? Meh. I'm resisting the temptation though. Because it's not good for him to be obsessed like that, and it's not good for me to use him as a mood-booster (let alone the fact that I'm playing with his emotions by first telling that him that he needs to get over me, then calling him and making myself unforgettable) and it just wouldn't be a good thing to do at all.

I'm not going to call him.

I don't need the confidence-rush that comes from talking to fanboys. I'm better than that. There are other people who love me whom I could call, and that type of friendly, platonic love is much healthier than life-and-death obsession. If I really feel like I need someone, I'll call Anna. Since she's right next to me after all, and I already called Neko and Crystal.

...and if you're wondering what suddenly made me think of calling Matt, it was the song 'coin-operated boy' by the Dresden Dolls. That's kind of what he is to me.

What's Left of the Flag - Flogging Molly

His eyes they closed
and his last breath spoke
he had seen all to be seen
a life once full
now an empty vase
wilt the blossums
on his early grave

walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
then the rosary beads
count them 1 2 3
fell apart as they hit the floor
in a garb of black
we must pay respect
to the color we were born to mourn
walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

In its place grew
an angry festered wound
full of hatered and remourse
where I pick and scratch
till the blood it matched
silent rage that now fills my lungs
for there are many ways
to kill a man they say
with bayonet, axe or sword
but son a bullet fired
from a shapeless guise
just put the shell of a Thompson gun

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

from the east out to the western shore
where many men and many more will fall
but no angel flys with me tonight
though freedom reigns on all
and curse the name for which
we slaved our days
so every men chose Kingdom Come
But sure as night turns day
it's the passion play
oh my god
what have they done
with madmen rage
well the dogged craze
but the dead rise again you fools

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

coin operated boy - dresden dolls

coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
but i turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want a coin operated boy

made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend....

coin operated boy
all the other real ones that i destroy
cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i'll
never let him go and i'll never be alone
not with my coin operated boy......

this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
i didnt think so but im still convinceable
will you persist even after i bet you
a billion dollars that i'll never love you
will you persist even after i kiss you
goodbye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it?
i'm dying to lose it...
i want it
i want you
i want a coin operated boy.

and if i had a star to wish on
for my life i cant imagine
any flesh and blood could be his match
i can even take him in the bath

coin operated boy
he may not be real experienced with girls
but i know he feels like a boy should feel
isnt that the point that is why i want a
coin operated boy
with his pretty coin operated voice
saying that he loves me that hes thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why i want
a coin operated boy.