Oh, hon. *hugs* Seriously, this is just in a completely differnt league to my bullshit. Kids can be cruel, but sometimes they can be monsters as well.
I know what its like to never be able to quite move on from things. We moved around a lot when I was young, and there was one school that I was at for a couple of years that really shaped me in a way I wished it hadn't. Nothing on the level of what you had to deal with, but enough daily deconstructing of who you are and eroding all sense of self confidence that you never really look at people the same way again.
And, you know. I don't think you have to be able to move past it, just be able to distance yourself from it so that it doesn't have such an impact anymore. it becomes more of a problem when you feel like you should move on but you can't, because somehow it makes it seem like it is all your fault.
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I know what its like to never be able to quite move on from things. We moved around a lot when I was young, and there was one school that I was at for a couple of years that really shaped me in a way I wished it hadn't. Nothing on the level of what you had to deal with, but enough daily deconstructing of who you are and eroding all sense of self confidence that you never really look at people the same way again.
And, you know. I don't think you have to be able to move past it, just be able to distance yourself from it so that it doesn't have such an impact anymore. it becomes more of a problem when you feel like you should move on but you can't, because somehow it makes it seem like it is all your fault.