*hugs* I think I'm stronger partly because of friends like you. At the time, the deadjournal entry was screened to only two RL friends, both of whom LOLed at the idea of me being molested by someone who was two years younger than I was. So I LOLed back at them because I didn't want to sound hysterical or like I was making a big deal out of nothing.

Which basically means I went even further into pretending that nothing happened.

Having someone like you for a friend means that you wouldn't let me get away with that. You'd tell me that it's wrong, and you'd tell me to stand up for myself and clearly tell him where to go with words instead of body language.