I don't think that I was actually physically scared of him. Not in a sense of thinking he could force me to do anything. He was taller, but I was a vicious fighter and very anti-contact. I knew I could kick his ass if needed but doing that would have required me to justify what I was doing. I would've needed to admit that something wrong was happening in order to be able to fight for myself that hard.

That paralyzed me a lot more than physical terror could've.