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*shaking*
You know me. Or rather, if you're reading this journal, you don't know me because you've met me fairly recently and therefore can't really know me. Though I'm probably trying to get to know you.
Back to the point.
OUCH.
I was watching a RP between Malik and Otogi in case they needed Marik there, and literally shaking while reading. I just felt so bad for Otogi and Malik both, and then to make matters worse, I read one of my favorite angsty fics (why read angst when I'm already feeling low? Oh yeah. It's prettily written. I'm a sucker for good writing) and ended up in tears. Again, not an exaggeration.
Tears as in put head down on desk and cry for a little. Not long. Only a few minutes, but that was embarrassing enough. I'm not usually the emotional type.
(And we will not analyze me and say that the reason that I'm letting RP affect me is that I'm suppressing all my emotions over IRL problems ie sister dying by inches).
If it was that bad for me, I wonder what it must have been like for EKYO and Kat? Kat kept wanting to back out and swearing at me for agreeing to speed up the plot and needing to brute-break Otogi (he was on the phone with me since he said that he needed his backbone stiffened) and EKYO... EKYO showed me a cool little fanart of Marik and Malik that I need to add to my fanstuff memories post.
...just finished RPing Devlin's appearance with Kat. I still feel shaken.
Back to the point.
OUCH.
I was watching a RP between Malik and Otogi in case they needed Marik there, and literally shaking while reading. I just felt so bad for Otogi and Malik both, and then to make matters worse, I read one of my favorite angsty fics (why read angst when I'm already feeling low? Oh yeah. It's prettily written. I'm a sucker for good writing) and ended up in tears. Again, not an exaggeration.
Tears as in put head down on desk and cry for a little. Not long. Only a few minutes, but that was embarrassing enough. I'm not usually the emotional type.
(And we will not analyze me and say that the reason that I'm letting RP affect me is that I'm suppressing all my emotions over IRL problems ie sister dying by inches).
If it was that bad for me, I wonder what it must have been like for EKYO and Kat? Kat kept wanting to back out and swearing at me for agreeing to speed up the plot and needing to brute-break Otogi (he was on the phone with me since he said that he needed his backbone stiffened) and EKYO... EKYO showed me a cool little fanart of Marik and Malik that I need to add to my fanstuff memories post.
...just finished RPing Devlin's appearance with Kat. I still feel shaken.
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I don't know what else to say - yet I comment ... So before I ramble or say something that makes no sense... I'll post this.