Yeah, I'm not too fond of them either but I have to go. When someone suffers while they live, the least that I can do is pay them tribute when they're dead, and hope that they finally found peace.
That is true. I suppose I just do things my own way as well - I'd also much prefer my memories being with them with not having *that* (funeral) being the last thing I remember of them... so to speak. Yes, that's one thing I always hope ... that after leaving here on Earth, they find peace wherever they go next.
Stress mostly, and the feeling that I should have done something about that, that I should have known and been able to stop her. And that, well, since I was supposed to be looking after them, sort of, it was kind of my fault... add lots of stress to that, and you'll get why I was dealing so haphazardly.
Yes, considering I really had no idea what was going on - I came back from being ill - or rather saw your entry while I was 'ill' and had no idea what was going on, but wasn't yet allowed (nor really could) get online. But I can understand what you mean *hugs you* I still doubt whatever happened was your fault, but if you're feeling better now - and somewhat less stressed- and hopefully at some peace with what happened... then that's good...
I hope that made sense, I'm really tired and having to make sure I'm actually spelling correctly and making sense.
Funny, I do that as well ^_^ Though in my case, it's not a bottle, it's a spillproof container.
LoL I should get one, but the bottles are so much easier :P for me at least ^^; I suppose...
Re: oops, hit the enter button too early...
That is true. I suppose I just do things my own way as well - I'd also much prefer my memories being with them with not having *that* (funeral) being the last thing I remember of them... so to speak. Yes, that's one thing I always hope ... that after leaving here on Earth, they find peace wherever they go next.
Stress mostly, and the feeling that I should have done something about that, that I should have known and been able to stop her. And that, well, since I was supposed to be looking after them, sort of, it was kind of my fault... add lots of stress to that, and you'll get why I was dealing so haphazardly.
Yes, considering I really had no idea what was going on - I came back from being ill - or rather saw your entry while I was 'ill' and had no idea what was going on, but wasn't yet allowed (nor really could) get online. But I can understand what you mean *hugs you* I still doubt whatever happened was your fault, but if you're feeling better now - and somewhat less stressed- and hopefully at some peace with what happened... then that's good...
I hope that made sense, I'm really tired and having to make sure I'm actually spelling correctly and making sense.
Funny, I do that as well ^_^ Though in my case, it's not a bottle, it's a spillproof container.
LoL I should get one, but the bottles are so much easier :P for me at least ^^; I suppose...