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So, I'm back. And feeling pretty good really. I mean, I still have a fair amount of stuff to do, but I've got most of it done, and the funeral was what I was really dreading anyway. All the pressure had just been piling up and after the funeral, I was feeling okayish again. Kind of blank and depressed, but not like I was about to explode.

...though I did have another nightmare last night. Some of the lovely people are ygo_rpg were talking about me behind my back in a private chat (don't ask how I could read it) and yeah... suffice it to say that getting insulted and having your RP skills mocked isn't fun.

At which point Kat called, woke me up and told me that I needed to RP for that RP. *blinks* Yes. That instantly made me very paranoid so please, if you have a problem with something, tell me directly. I also dreamt of Mamono yelling at me again, so I'm posting the three unfinished fics that I had started for her challenge and the finished ficlet that I finally decided to give her since I am so out of practice when it comes to writing full-length fics.

Thank you to Crystal, Neko and Bry for doing the writing meme. I loved all three of the snippets. Hm, speaking of which, I need to do Bry's request now. *nods* Will do.

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Yeah, I'm not too fond of them either but I have to go. When someone suffers while they live, the least that I can do is pay them tribute when they're dead, and hope that they finally found peace.

That is true. I suppose I just do things my own way as well - I'd also much prefer my memories being with them with not having *that* (funeral) being the last thing I remember of them... so to speak. Yes, that's one thing I always hope ... that after leaving here on Earth, they find peace wherever they go next.

Stress mostly, and the feeling that I should have done something about that, that I should have known and been able to stop her. And that, well, since I was supposed to be looking after them, sort of, it was kind of my fault... add lots of stress to that, and you'll get why I was dealing so haphazardly.

Yes, considering I really had no idea what was going on - I came back from being ill - or rather saw your entry while I was 'ill' and had no idea what was going on, but wasn't yet allowed (nor really could) get online. But I can understand what you mean *hugs you* I still doubt whatever happened was your fault, but if you're feeling better now - and somewhat less stressed- and hopefully at some peace with what happened... then that's good...

I hope that made sense, I'm really tired and having to make sure I'm actually spelling correctly and making sense.

Funny, I do that as well ^_^ Though in my case, it's not a bottle, it's a spillproof container.

LoL I should get one, but the bottles are so much easier :P for me at least ^^; I suppose...

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